Posted by janejj on January 7, 2002, at 0:42:01
I think the reason I'm depressed is because I lost my faith. As a child I attended church and became involed in church activities, at about the age of 16/17, I decided I didn't want to go to church any more. So I continued in life forgetting and not really caring about what I had been taught. Well, i guess I just kind of blocked it out. I Also felt as though Christianity had been forced on me and I wanted to rebel against my family.
So here I am at age 22, just finished university and I feel so lost. Its horrible, I feel like I'm in a dead end street.I find it impossible to make decisions about anything and well I'm totally depressed.
Anyway tonight something made me find the Bible which my Nan had given me some time ago. I started to read it and everything became clear. I actually feel as though some of my depression has lifted already.
So now I have made a decision to try and find God, live the way he wants to me to live and have faith. So now I don't have to worry about being in that dead end street, cos I know that God is gonna get me out of there.
Ok that was hard for me to write, because now you all probably think I'm mad. I used to find it so hard to admit to being a Christian, esp. at school! Cos its percieved as really nerdy and un cool. Now I am going to try my best to tell people about Jesus. I know its going to hard though, cos peoples reactions to stuff like that isn't generally good. I hang around with people who aren't religious at all, so I hope they still want to know me after I tell them. I think I'm being a bit paranoid about telling people, oh well!
The only think that bothers me now, is why God created us in the first place ???