Posted by Simcha on December 12, 2001, at 12:16:24
In reply to This is the worst, posted by akc on December 12, 2001, at 7:23:19
akc,
Try to be gentle to yourself.
I had a wonderful therapist that pointed out that I was trying to do too much for someone who was suffering from depression and recovering from sexual abuse. She used to say that I would do more in a day than most of her patients would do in an entire week!!!!
I struggled to appear "normal" to everyone. I over-compensated for my illness. I worked at 300% so that it would appear that I was at the same level as everyone else.
This was not gentle. It was not respectful of my needs at that time. I had to learn to slow down and to allow myself to sleep all day if I needed it. I had to learn to allow myself to simply stare off into space and do nothing every now and then. I had to learn to lower my unreasonable expectations of myself at work and in relationships.
I think that you and I are a lot alike. You sound like you are highly functioning even with all of the cr*p you are dealing with. Perhaps you might need to be a little less functional for a bit. Maybe your body and your mind are telling you to take a break?
I found that as I've eased up on myself a bit I have found more serenity.
Take Care,
Easy Does It..
Simcha> I don't know if this will ever end. I'm going to try to string together some work today with the eye of going into the hospital soon if this does not break. Something has to give. Or at least, plan on sleeping at my mom's next week the entire time I am there. I just wrote a 4 page letter to my pdoc trying to educate her of my history, my fears, etc. Hopefully, she won't just treat me like some common criminal, some drug addict seeking a high, or something -- that is how she treated me yesterday.
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> I am scared. This spell has lasted a lot longer than any recently. But off to work I go.
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> akc
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