Posted by Greg on December 4, 2001, at 13:05:55
In reply to At a crossroads, posted by akc on December 4, 2001, at 12:42:53
> I stand here feeling so miserable. Full of sadness, fear, aloneness, shame. Overwhelmed by all the feelings. Desperately wanting relief. I have two ways I can go -- my way, seeking immediate relief of some sort -- or trusting my therapist, and sitting in this misery. On one level I know I need to trust and endure. But on another level, I don't know if I can.
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> I know this is not some type of horrible physical pain that I'm seeking relief from -- I almost wish it were -- there would be no guilt or shame in asking for a pill, or if it was so awful, the end. I don't have the strength. It is too much.
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> akcakc,
You don't really know me and I don't really know you, but I always read your posts. I've seen your highs and your lows, but I've never seen you in this much pain.
Is hospitalization an option for you right now? It might give you a chance to get out from under the pressure, reflect, relax and get some focus on where you want to head. It sounds like you have an understanding employer who might be willing to give you some time off for this.
This may sound very selfish of me, but I like having you here. I want you to be around for a very long time. I'm afraid if you don't get the right kind of help very soon, that may not happen.
I guess what I'm trying to say, is that I care.
Greg
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