Posted by Gracie2 on October 29, 2001, at 19:28:50
In reply to Re: Is anxiety worse than depression FOR YOU, posted by Greg on October 29, 2001, at 18:47:51
After a great deal of thought, I decided that anxiety is worse than depression for me because of my family. I've been very self-destructive at times but I would never intentionally hurt another person. However, my anxiety, my panic attacks, my crying jags and my "acting out" - that's how I refer to some of the really insane things I've done - this was all deeply disturbing and terribly hurtful and worrisome for my family.
This was never my intention and only added guilt
to the veritable buffet of psychiatric problems
that I was already suffering from. I must say, up to this point, they have been loving and supportive and I would surely be dead without them. Now I'm afraid that one day I will come home and they will be gone for good, with a note on the door that says, "We can't take your crap anymore." Everything will be gone except our really junky furniture and my thousands of books and our obnoxious cat, and maybe the wok because they wouldn't know what to do with it.So, from that standpoint, depression is better. I just hole up in my room, so at least they know where I am, and I am quiet. Mostly I sleep, and they just have to come in once in awhile to make sure I'm still breathing.
I'm not like that all the time - those are the extremes. I'm not doing too bad right now.
-Gracie
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