Posted by Kristi on October 22, 2001, at 0:51:32
In reply to Re: Precipitating suicide? Paxvox, Krazy Kat, posted by Anna Laura on October 20, 2001, at 2:03:59
I can total understand and relate. If it wasn't for my religious upbringing.... and what would happen to my soul if I committed suicide.... I would be long gone by now. THAT is the only thing keeping me here.
My suicidal thoughts now are.... I wish my house would be bombed.... or I got anthrax... or, well, you get my point. I guess that's just as suicidal. I want to die, but I can't kill myself.
So I keep truging along until my time comes.
> Hi Guys
> Thanks for having shared your personal experience; i've been depressed for eleven years so far: ups and downs, moods improved but somehow feeling less lively as years go by: i absolutely hate it; i can stand depression and mind torture but i absolutely hate apathy: it's like being dead.
> Yesterday while surfing on the net i bumped in to an article about major depression with psychotic features (the mood incogruent type, which i had): they said it had a poor prognosis in the lung run: i got very paranoid about that and by lunch time i got very pessimistic about my life (i'll never recover, i'll never get back to College, i'm a failure and things like that). Thought about suicide but felt trapped because of the dread of hell; having a feed-back on this subject somehow helped to get part of this burden off my shoulders.
> Thanks guys
> Anna Laura