Posted by ChrisK on October 21, 2001, at 4:03:09
In reply to Precipitating suicide?, posted by Jane D on October 19, 2001, at 1:21:36
Neither of my two serious suicide attempts were precipitated by a single incident. My life had just become so dark and useless that I knew I had to die to let others go on with their own lives. I was convinced that suicide was the best way to relive the emotional burden I had put on my family. The attempts themselves came out of convenience more than anything else.
One day we had an ice storm and my wife called from work to say that she was going to stay with her daughter that night rather than try to drive 20 miles home from the city. That left me alone where I would not be found for at least 24 hours and I thought that would be enough time for the OD to be complete. My thoughts at the time were all about just getting it over with. I had become consumed with death.
Somehow I survived those times (after ample time in the hospital) and now I'm on the right meds. I feel grateful that I have my life today but in those days I was upset with myself for not succeeding.