Posted by paxvox on October 19, 2001, at 12:20:33
In reply to Re: Precipitating suicide?, posted by Anna Laura on October 19, 2001, at 11:08:50
Anna Laura,
Please sit down, enjoy yourself, and make yourself feel at home. I don't think you will find anyone here to be too judgmental. Sure, we do disagree about things, but we try to remain civil. If English is not your mother tongue, you could have fooled me, as you have an excellent command of the grammar.
Now, as to your post.
You fear hell, and that is your main motivation to stay alive, or was I reading too much in to what you wrote? Maybe you still love your life, wounded as you may be, and are using fear as a negative motivation tool.Afterall, a known evil, your current existance, may be better than an unknown evil, hell. I will try to be as secular as possible in this response (though I could be much more convincing if you shared my religious beliefs). When life has become so painfully unbearable that death seems the only escape, one is clearly in a tenuous spot. Whereas I don't necessarily condone "assisted suicide" or whatever lable it carries, I can see how someone WITH NO HOPE AT ALL for a meaningful recovery of life might logically conclude to embrace death to end their pain. I feel personally, however, that no matter how deep and dark the hole one has fallen into in a psychological sense, there ALWAYS remains hope for a meaningful recovery. God knows, there were days when I thought the only way out was the final exit. However, I never played that card, and how glad I am that I didn't. Not to say there are days that aren't misserable, pains sometimes severe, fears sometimes daunting, nights without sleep and so on. But I have also seen days or glorious beauty, experienced unconditional love from my daughter, cried because I was sad and happy at the same time,helped a friend back up off the ground. In these things I find purpose, in these things I find peace, in these things I find a reason to see what tomorrow has to offer.
PAX
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