Posted by NikkiT2 on October 19, 2001, at 12:03:47
In reply to Re: Precipitating suicide? » Jane D, posted by paxvox on October 19, 2001, at 7:52:11
This post has made me realise something...
I;m NOT suicidal!!!
I have felt suicidal for the longest time, and I really don;t know what kept me here. Most of the time it was just a realisation that i didn;t want to be here, and would, as some point, kill myself. About once a week it would boil over into really wanting to do it, but luckily I never quite made it the whole way.
Some days it would just get blcker and blacker until I lost all hope. Slowly, like a thick black oil slowly covering me.
Other days something would trigger me over the edge, something pathetic like forgetting to buy the newpaper, or my husband nagging me slightly.
For years, I just knew I would die. Now I am being given the chance to find a reason to hang onto.