Posted by Jane D on October 19, 2001, at 1:21:36
The following was posted by Gracie on PB about what actually pushes people to commit suicide. It was originally just an aside in a post on another topic but I'd like to continue it and figured I might as well start if off here instead of being "invited" to move later.
"Many people on the edge of suicide hang from this earth from a filament, a mere spiderweb, and the most inconsequential action can make them decide whether to go or to stay - a hurtful remark, or a child's cough from the bedroom down the hallway."
If you want to see the context it came from http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20011015/msgs/81573.html
I have read (but don't remember where) that impulsiveness was a key factor in suicide attempts. That certainly seems to fit in with the description above but I'm really curious about whether this was the experience of most people here. Mine was completely different and now I'm wondering if I was just odd. This was a long time ago but as I recall when the temptation became almost irresistable I was completely oblivious to the outside world. It came on gradually so that as the urge to die became stronger I was also becoming more and more disconnected from everyone and everything. Hurtful remarks had no impact on me at all because I already absolutely believed all the worst things you could say about me were true. Good things couldn't help because I was absolutely convinced all the worst things were true. When I thought at all it was a repeating, muddled tape of how hopelessly awful everything was that didn't leave room for any other imput or, fortunately, for competent planning. .
Just wondering what it was that has kept me and the rest of us here.