Posted by susan C on September 27, 2001, at 11:03:18
In reply to Getting it all out, posted by Kristi on September 27, 2001, at 2:39:15
This is a place where your soul can be bared...isn't it. I saw 'something about mary' and 'never been kissed' the last two days...are we psychic?
I am not a guy, but part of what you describe is what happend to me and my first 'love'. He just told me to stop seeing him...he never never talked about it. Of, course, from my side, I cant remember ASKing him...it has been a long time...
Have you looked for him? To draw 'closure'?
Here's a cyber hug from me, and I am glad you haven't been smoking, you smell better 8;o)
mouse with the remote control
susan c> Ugh... hi....
> There is something, something on my mind... constantly, obsessively, that I've never told anyone about cuz I always have to hold on to that "strong, tough" appearance.
> I was with this guy... for 5 years. We had one of those story book, movie romances, that just didn't seem real. It sounds like such a cliche... but it is so true. I never, ever felt so souly connected(for those who believe in that) to anyone in my life. This was the kind of love, where 5 years later.... as an example, he would come home from work... come bashing thru the front door and jump on me and hug me and tell me how much he missed me. Puppy love from beginning to end. Never fought... always laughed.... always brightened up when we saw each other. Exactly 1 year and 4 months ago he just picked up and left. with a "dear Kristi" letter. He had a dream of being in a band.... he felt he had it.... ya know, half the men in this world's dream. He was leaving for Iowa.. to meet up with some friends to be in a band. "l'll miss you." That was it. Haven't heard from him since.
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> I think about him every single day of my life. At least every hour. Wondering what he's doing, what he's thinking, where he is... even if he's alive. Most importantly... WHY DID HE LEAVE???? We had all these wonderful dreams together. A fantastic future planned.
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> I have dated and "loved" since... but there will never be anyone like him. I just ache to hear his voice... and to think that was all "fake" on his part... all we shared... just crushes me. Crushes human faith. What could cause someone to do that? I don't know,... I'm a woman.... and I chalk it up to that we need closure thing. I have to accept I'll never get it. Any guy's out there have any ideas? I know i'll just never know. That's the hardest part.
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> I would give anything just to hear his voice. Isn't there a statute of limitations for getting over someone?????? Sorry to vent.... but what better place for it. Thanks to all to read.
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> Sar.... I really want a cig right now.
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> Kristi
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