Posted by shelliR on September 17, 2001, at 22:20:00
In reply to Re: Think I fired my therapist - VERY upset (LONG), posted by JennyR on September 17, 2001, at 21:48:02
> I live in NYC. Witnessed much of the WTC incident in person from one mile away. Had my husband caught up in that second implosion - he ran from that cloud of dust, debris and glass, got covered in ash, but unhurt - he ducked into a Burger King. Life here has been turned inside out. This is at the same time as I am dumping my therapist. I can't get rid of the sick feeling inside and can't even separate which is contributing to what extent. Just so shaken. A pervasive feeling that you are never safe. A terrible sense of overwhelming loss. Can't even separate out how much is from losing my therapist who I had strong feelings for vs. losing a sense that there is some safety in everyday routines.
> Numb, then crying, then numb, then angry, then numb.
> Everyone I know knows someone who died. I know people who made narrow escapes. I still look each day at where the World Trade Center was (work a mile away) and see the smoke still coming out of it.
> My marriage is not good either, and I really truly believe now that there is no point to anything. There is no safety, no security, not anywhere. No, I'm not suicidal. But I'm finding everything so extraordinarily difficult.
> I did set up an appointment with the woman I consulted when my therapist was on his unannounced vacation. But I told her it is just for a couple of times to look at how this whole therapy thing ended and how it tore me up, that I do not want any protracted involvements again.
> Thanks for letting me rant.
JennyI'm glad you did make an appointment to see someone, at least to sort things out. Our feelings (and tears) are so with you. Take care. No response necessary.
Shelli
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