Posted by akc on August 18, 2001, at 7:08:02
In reply to More on aloneness, posted by AKC on August 12, 2001, at 13:34:40
Well, it is the weekend. I hate weekends. At least during the week, work gives me lots of human contact. Now I am trying to make plans. I have AA this morning, with breakfast following. Then I am trying to go to the Chiefs game tonight -- stupid me, I got the tickets before I found someone to go with me. So I may have shelled out $90 for nothing. Tomorrow, I am going over to see my best friend (she lives in the next town west -- about 45 minutes away). We are going for guilty pleasures -- Legally Blonde. Then AA tomorrow night.
However, I shared with her last night that even with working on my friendships, this is not enough. I'm 36 year old and have never been in a relationship. I think I have shared on here I'm not looking for sex -- the drugs have taken care of that desire. Just someone to have companionship with. To go to the Chiefs game, to go on vacation, most importantly, someone to share both the good and the bad times with. Maybe I am a romantic, but that is what I think it is about. I look at my brothers. One has a horrible marriage. One has a great marriage (almost 20 years). The one with a great marriage -- they share everything, both good and bad. I want what they have. Oops, everytime I start thinking about this I get teary.
akc
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