Posted by paxvox on August 16, 2001, at 20:51:30
Well this is it, tomorrow will begin the end of a 24 year journey of fear. I go to the Neurologist to find out if I have MS or not. God, why have I let this thing dog me for so long? Was it easier to fear a possible evil than to face it or find I'm OK? What makes man turn away from the horror of reality? Who lets us make our own little worlds? A separate reality where the hyper-vigilant can control the comings and goings. My world has too much sadness, too much fear. So is it better to say let me know? What will that knowledge bring me? Peace of mind? No more excuses for being a failure? Why am I as I am?
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