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if it make you feel better MY LIFE IS A FAIRY TALE » Patches

Posted by Dubya on July 25, 2001, at 23:01:29

In reply to Love only in fairy tales?, posted by Patches on July 18, 2001, at 21:59:56

Patches, that was such a moving post! I should mention that I don't know what love is or how to love. I can relate to that really touching post, wow, you couldn't be more serious, I'm sorry to hear that... I'm not try to sympathize but rather, can't believe that it is happening to someone like yourself. I'm 20, male born in Canada. My life couldn't be a bigger fairy tale. My parents worked their butts off, living in a middle/upper middle class/upper class neighbourhood (just an indication of how hard they worked). They provided me with pretty much whatever I wanted. Saddest thing is, I can't do well in school, not only a disappointment to myself/parents but rather a waste of a person. It's upsetting b/c people who don't have what I do want to have those material things. I had 5 computers purchased by my household since 1990. I've a car, I've got all of this material stuff and yet I couldn't be sadder. I currently see myself on the streets as being homeless since I currently live with my parents. What kind of idiot would go to the prom without a prom date? Me. What kind of idiot can't live with himself/forgive himself, me. It's that bad, it gets worse, I have no friends, I am really messed, I'm ugly and dumb b/c no girl wants me or to be near me. My parents never really second guess my purchasing decisions or suggestions yet, I have never been good at anything. I'd at least be happy knowing that I'm not good at everything than being called a failure, loser, fag, and the list goes on... basically, I've been called every name in the book, mainly by non-family members. I'm always late, I can go an entire day staying home and only then go out at 5pm or 9pm for the 1st time all day. I can't do anything normal, that not only bothers me, it seems to bother everybody else around me. I feel that nobody wants to be nice to me b/c they seem snobby towards me. I am constantly having thoughts/images of wanting to die as in thinking about dying in a fatal car crash or jumping from a certain height that will result in guaranteed...

I'm always nervous even though I'm really not, I sweat like a pig especially around people or when I think I stand out in any way, shape or form.

Trust me, I'm one of a kind, I know nobody that is like me, nobody that acts like me or does such stupid things as I do. Even worse, it is those things I don't do such as pot-drugs, green tea, cigarettes, anything that might actually make me feel emotionally better. BTW I'm crying right now and most people cry for a reason, well I'm crying because I am all of those things I've mentioned and more. I am anything but normal. I'd like for people to tell me that I am perfectly normal or close to it but then they'd be lying to me to make me feel better. I hope that you Peaches aren't going through any of this, esp. since you have a great family right?


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