Posted by geekUK on June 21, 2001, at 21:40:51
In reply to Re: crisis care- UK NHS what tha » geekUK, posted by dreamer on June 21, 2001, at 10:58:38
yay, dreamer..wassup!
this is allso to anyone ese who is about..
borderline....Hey I wanted that....currectly I am stuck on the possibility of the bipolar II thang. to be perfectly honest its the most confident I have felt about a diagnosis. The impulsiveness/changeability of borderline in another catagory with other similar symptoms. So tommorow, i go to that crisis xare thing. what it is is an ability to get quick therapy (2-3 working days) as I am in therapy this GP referal wasnt the most informed decicision. however, I have managed to get a meeting with a pschiatrist out of this. A good thing as he can advise the GP. last time I turned up stating how I tryed to kill myself and I am not sure if it will happen again andf I am not sure if I want it not to happen agian and I want on a mood stabilizer to stop me desiding that I can get the best from life and be the most wonderful, perfects son of a bitch that ever lived and then want to push kitchen implements through sections of my body and walk the streets looking at the tragedy and suffering on everyones eyes and to see that I see although they dont see it in me. If anyone knows BPII does this sound like a normal day? This is why tomorrow I am telling the doctors I will not go on another SSSRI. I want to, and will have to be sedated not to, go on a mood stabiliser. Irrespective of anything else, if my moods stabilise i dont think i will be a suicide risk for the rest of the meds effectiveness. As it stands starting A TCA or MAOI would leave me around 5 weeks (at most)to be perfectly fine, We all know how deadly those drugs can be. Anyone think its funny that by treateing deppression sometimes you take home a readymade DIY suicide kit. makes me wonder if anyone who is suicidal ever should be out there. I think so if only to have contol ovewr your own destiny................
Oh yeah, I did an IQ test today 120 and didnt really try. I did it in propper exam conditions. so I am a smart bastard! Its good to have some belleif. Also did an emotional IQ test. 71! If this was my IQ I would be retarded. I guess thats why Im in therapy.heheheheheheh. ohhh, sleep will not come to this tired body now, peace will not come to this broken heart............oh yeah hey dreamer, I hate emails got nothing to say.
Hi,
got up watched tv
considered leaving the house
desided that something bad would happen
went to bed
MC
so anyway I am interested in getting to know you (and yall) better so..
I am 21 yrs old
male
finished a BSc psychology course (is this sad or big time kudos?)
'live' in london
enjoy alcohol and ciggarettes (only say if you dont to save bandwith)
have a tendency to view the world as a feild which are souls float and meld and grow, eventualy join in a ball of energy from which all life is created.
OR
that life is a world of ash and rivers of blood with six legged bays singing lullabys to all those who care to look in at ther grotesque *ball hemorrage heads.
OR
that life is plasicfantasicriptorment. Thats my new word. concreate jungles with hooks extnding deep down into my spine keeping me consuming, walking working. maintainance. like the tin man who actualt found his heart then spent his life trying to forget he ever had one.
well of course Id like to sit and chew the fat but this fool must be off.
poster:geekUK
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