Posted by Ant-Rock on February 7, 2001, at 22:01:07
In reply to Ant-Rock, posted by gwen on January 26, 2001, at 6:46:05
Extremely difficult times. The grieving, up and down rollercoaster, constantly on my mind. Wondering if an anti-anxiety med would help. Dreaming about the past, marriage, happy times etc. Wake up from these dreams with mind racing. Very depressed. I get a sick feeling in my stomach just thinking about life without her. Even after the cruel way she has cut me out of her life, treated me so horribly cold since the separation you think i would be able to get angry and use the anger to move on, but the hurt and self blame is preventing this.
Would not wish this on anybody. Having doubts I can make it through this living nightmare.