Posted by kellyR. on November 7, 2000, at 15:07:58
In reply to I don't think I can be helped..., posted by TomV on November 7, 2000, at 14:13:26
> (As I ponder which board I should be posting this message to...)
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> I've posted on medical psycho babble before about how I slid into a major depression thats lasted the last 4 years due to early age trauma. The origin of my depression dates back to my father's death when I was age 7 (I'm 33 now). I carried around this heavy baggage my entire life, which in retrospect allowed me to have a happy childhood and a fair amount of happiness as an adult. I did have some mild to moderate bouts of depression through out my life, but right now I'm definitely paying the fiddler!!
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> My depression is based in extreme sadness... loss of my father; loss of my innocence; loss, loss, loss! I've tried lots of meds. None seemed to last very long or work at all. It seems like the deep sadness always resurfaces, which causes me to think excessively and slide down the depressive hole. I'm really beginning to feel that I'm going to stay in this hole regardless of what treatment I get (medical or non-med). I've read about certain meds for certain types of depression (low level, chronic, major, etc), but I've never read about one for grief! If that pill exists point me in that direction!
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> It's been hard coming to grips with this pain. I just don't think there is any way to medicate it, therapize it, any way you look at it. My only hope is time. Thats a tough thing to hang your hat on. What really hurts most is nothing else in my life is really that bad. I have a good job (financial professional), wife, kids, nice home... everything alot of people would give their left arm for!
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> So, does anyone agree that sometimes, some things just can't be helped?
TomV.
I lost My father to suicide when I was 11yrs. old,It was the worst thing that happen to me.A dr. at the hospital I was at made me write a letter to him,So I could say goodbye something you really never get if they die suddenly.If you like I'll write what I wrote to him for you to see what I mean.It did help for me,& I'll always miss him but I'm not tring to kill myself to be w/ him anymore.
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