Posted by Angie M on September 11, 2000, at 19:37:45
After 24 years of Hell and mental anguish, I have
finally figured out that I need help beyond just meds.
I have seen several doctors, and I was institutionalized
as a teen, but nothing has helped. I asked my GP to
put me on Zoloft, and he did. It helped immensely, but
the side effects were so bad I couldn't handle them. I
quit taking it. In May, I was in a terrible car wreck.
I had some moderate head trauma, and my doctor told me
he wouldn't put me on anything else until I get MRIs
and EEGs and stuff I can't afford. Things were basically
okay until the wreck; every coping skill I'd learned
while on Zoloft was useful. But something happened to me.
I now have severe panic attacks when I go to school, I'm
scared to death of public places, I won't go anywhere
by myself, and I go through a bottle of Pepto in two days.
My depression has come back, and I've almost done the
unthinkable. I have no support system. I have only a
couple of friends, and they don't understand. I can't
concentrate on my studies, and my grades are suffering.
I'm miserable. I've been looking into all types of ways
to try to help myself, but my emotions are too strong.
I need to talk to someone...I need to know that there
are others going through this, and that I'm not going
crazy. I have never felt so alone in all my life. I'm in
so much pain, and I have no idea why. I may be able to
get the medical care I need; I'm working on that, but I
need something to keep me hanging on until then. I'm old
enough where I should be able to handle this, but I'm so
scared...Any advice, solutions, encouragement? My doctor
says that once I am cleared of having any brain abnormalities
that he wants to put me back on Zoloft and Wellbutrin. Any
thoughts on this? I've asked him about a lot of other
meds, and he insists on keeping me on Zoloft but won't
really explain why. I just want to know what other people
are taking, and how they cope with life when they're off
their meds--I need to know that I'll be okay...
poster:Angie M
thread:494
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