Posted by alexandra_k on July 1, 2014, at 21:16:06
In reply to Re: saw a nice nurse..., posted by Partlycloudy on July 1, 2014, at 19:58:27
yes, i realise now that it does help me to have appointments scheduled. i never really thought of it before, but there is some sort of security... being able to hold stuff together until then, yeah. and as i get to know them... i can rehearse things in my imagination...
i think fortnightly will be good... because storms will pass. i do have some sort of... risk... of processing every little thing... like how i use babble, at times. i don't need... i don't need a person for that. just the perception of one lol.
i'm optimistic because... she seemed nice. and she said... i could use the time to talk or... whatever i wanted. whatever i found helpful. to talk about whatever. and she asked questions... but she really did seem happy for me to talk about whatever. okay to back off - she didn't press me to talk about mother... and happy for me to uh, ruminate, a little... get a bit... agitated... and she didn't freak out and try and fix it or change the subject or whatever.
so...
hard to know, because often people are on their best behaviour to start. including myself heh. but i like her, yeah.
it also helps that the doc was nice. and the disability guy on campus... i get on pretty good with him. i've gone and talked his ear off for a bit at various points... and he knows i'm not going away, now... and he said he would advocate for me to try and get me disability accommodations (funding people must be appealed to). and the administrator at disability support is good, too. and the receptionists at this new clinic, even.
and... and i have yet to tell him that i have decided to do health science rather than biomed. which he will be happy about. not least because it means only 18 lab classes next year rather than 48... and a hell of a lot less math...
different people. i've never had... more than 2 good people IRL. all the way back... when i just started DBT... was studying part time... 2 classes... and i had a wonderful community mental health keyworker and a wonderful therapist. it helps to feel a bit like there are different people. diversification or something.
:)
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