Posted by moose1 on July 8, 2012, at 16:04:08
In reply to Re: I withdraw my previous post, posted by Tabitha on March 24, 2011, at 1:29:31
I know this is an older post, but I just arrived here a few days ago. Some of you responded to my first post, and I appreciate that.
Tabitha, I feel like I'm on the road to where you are now, with all these things that you once had hope for but now don't believe. At this point, after 4 years of psychodynamic therapy with a therapist who I've never really felt right with, I will add this for myself:
I no longer believe that talk therapy and "insight" can actually relieve severe depression or anxiety. I hate to say this, but this seems to be true for me at least. I would love to hear stories of those who did actually resolved their symptoms through therapy.
So much of your post sounds like how I feel, and it's horribly depressing. I thought the whole point of therapy was to: make unconscious conflicts conscious, thereby resolving those conflicts via awareness and understanding and integration, which then leads to a relief of the conscious, acute psychological symptoms that brought me to therapy in the first place.
I guess I was really in fantasy land on that one. Not sure what I'll do next. But I, too, have completely lost faith in therapy. And maybe it is because I'm too resistant or too defended or my T and I aren't attuned or something else altogether.
All I know is that when I wake up every morning, I still feel like my spirit is gone, replaced by a suffocating hopelessness that I still don't really know where it comes from or why. And I feel like I've just pissed away 4 years and thousands of dollars on a therapy that I'm afraid won't actually do anything for me after all.