Posted by Dinah on April 30, 2012, at 18:20:49
Sad to say her house looks as bad as the ones that end up on the news.
I've tried to involve social services and local government in the past. But apparently people have a right to live that way.
I suppose they'll have to carve out a path as wide as a wheelchair now. She doesn't want home health nurses in her house. But she's had emergency medical personnel in her house lately so it's not really a secret.
Unfortunately there are aspects of her mental illness that affect me in a concrete way.
I want to be sensitive and understanding. I really do. But I don't really feel understanding. I mostly feel angry. I mostly try to avoid but sometimes the problem reaches out and grabs me. I hate going anywhere near her house.
I think the latest thoughts are that only a small subset of hoarders suffer from OCD, and that hoarding is a separate illness. That makes sense to me. It's never seemed like OCD to me. She doesn't seem to be anxious about it at all. More stubborn and willful.
I'm afraid of my mother. I know she can't do anything to me. But I'm still afraid of her. That's so silly really.