Posted by Dinah on August 15, 2011, at 12:09:46
In reply to Re: Alternate explanations would be appreciated » sleepygirl2, posted by Dinah on August 14, 2011, at 23:19:36
I wish I thought he did this to make me mad enough to jolt me out of my hopelessness and make me think myself, in order to repudiate his accusations. If he did it would be a pretty good strategy, given my temperament.
But I seriously doubt it.
I also seriously doubt he'll even remember last session by tomorrow. If I go. I'm feeling a bit better. I'd hate to make myself feel worse by going.
Still, perhaps one reason he's always been good for me is that he does force me to think things out myself. I've paid more attention to my actual thoughts as I begin working (as opposed to when I avoid beginning to work). There is definitely a lot of anxious thought about whether this is what I should be doing, or if something else should be done first, etc. Or anxiety about having to contact someone. I daresay that's what my brain is trying to avoid, even though in the long run my work would have very little anxiety involved if I just caught up and stayed caught up. I need to break the cycle.
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