Posted by 10derheart on April 22, 2011, at 12:36:24
In reply to it's wrong. you're wrong, posted by 10derheart on April 21, 2011, at 20:08:21
I guess I was missing the Writing board. I didn't use it often, but I did use it, and I sure do miss it when I *need* it. I'm hoping it's okay to just put that stuff here. I won't always be able to explain all the particulars to everyone. Either I can't or I won't, or I'll forget to....or something. I am afraid that will frustrate and annoy readers. It still helps me to get words out here about the emotions this *man* (if that's what he is....what-ev-er)has triggered in me with his crappy choices and behavior.
I'll be back. I have to take a test and finish a paper today. I hope to post more over this weekend. I really appreciate all responses, especially when some have little idea what the heck I'm talking about. I feel so alone and can't really respond to any of your issues with therapists if you still have them. It just hurts too much to wrap my mind around problems within these close relationships when this person I adore has rejected me so thoroughly. I should be a bigger person, but I'm just not. So I read then try to forget about what I read...sorta. Though I really can't forget any of your stories. Sigh.
I **definitely** could cope with PB and talking about therapy IF he had not thrown me away like garbage and refused to explain why. I had come to be okay with termination. It had to happen in our case and I understood (enough) why. I was adapting and overcoming and I **thought** everything was okay with him, too. But this never, ever, ever included 100% silence with no more contact....ever?? With no warning or explnation.
I am NOT okay with what he did right afterwards and other things I might explain here, if I can figure out how. Not at all okay. He screwed up something that was already horribly difficult, but then - amazingly - we repaired much of that...and then he smashed the repairs we did **together** all to bits.
jerk.
sigh.
I will be back.
MDD (presently in complete remission); ADD-Inattentive type; mild anxiety (not fomally dx'd)
Meds: Strattera 80 mg q day
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