Posted by obsidian on November 17, 2010, at 20:41:17
I have this one, over and over, same sort of stuff, shifted around...
I go back to second grade because I felt like I didn't learn enough or because someone tells me I didn't complete it
I am forever behind
and there's the shame of not having finished, and I think 'somehow I went to grad school, but I missed this?'
last time I think I was stuck there because I insisted on relearning it, I put myself back there, but then it occurred to me that I was much too old to be in second grade, and so I was only being foolishthis last dream...
I find out another man is my father
I keep trying to find something in his face that is like mine, but I can't see it, can't find it,
there's a hope there that I can find myself there, but he just seems like a strangerreal life:
my sister is calling me, crying a lot,
having a hard time
my father is very ill, and I listen to her like I am listening to her talk about her father...who is not my father. He is though. My brother, my sister and I all have the same mother and father.
She knows he'll die I guess. For moments though, I can feel sad about it too. On the phone though I listen to her like she's talking about someone else. She sounds so terribly sad, in pain again. It's brought it up again for her. for me too, in my own way.
maybe it's like hope dying.
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