Posted by rskontos on October 31, 2010, at 1:03:18
In reply to Re: Hi! » rskontos, posted by wittgensteinz on October 30, 2010, at 15:32:01
Hey Witti, it is great to talk to you too. I really have thought about you in the past few months. I hope you are doing ok.
You know, I think the panic attacks will lessen when I am used to the people at school and when I finally remember all I am suppressing. I am very shaky at school sometimes due to the content of the classes, and then there is those triggers I can't help. I do how two professors I have trusted with my issues and they are cool with and always check in when I check out.
I have two papers done and moving on to the next 2 and then I have loads of reading I will attempt. I might be playing catch up next friday or saturday. But I have another paper that I have to write next weekend.
I will be glad when this semester is done, I am halfway there.
Next semester will be even tougher. I start my practicums in the spring semester and have practicum and classes for the next 3 semesters than I am done. Whew I am tired thinking about it but I know I will feel so great once I have accomplished this. It will make me feel like I matter. That is what is important to me. To matter.
I have some of that motivation too. Sometimes my internal voices get to me, but I am pushing through all of that. I may always have fragmented parts of me, but I will learn to live well even fragmented.
take care, i will check here and you, all my babble friends I would love to get babblemail telling me to check out whatever threads you guys want feedback on.
thanks too for being so welcoming. It makes me feel like I matter.