Posted by mmealltalk on June 10, 2010, at 19:12:12
I dont know what is happening to me. I am feeling so much worse by the day and it is scaring me. A few years ago I was in and out of the hospital and in day treatment programs for a few years etc, and I promised myself I would never allow myself to return to that place in life that I require such treatment. Right now I feel like I did before being hospitalized the 2nd time. Ie- not knowing what to do or how to take care of myself, or caring about anything, crying all the time. I am drowning fast and I promised myself I wouldnt return to the world of hospitals etc and I may have to, and I hate myself already for requiring that in the past, it would make me even more of a failure if I have to return. This is so hard to digest.
Mel
I dont know what is happening to me. I am feeling so much worse by the day and it is scaring me. A few years ago I was in and out of the hospital and in day treatment programs for a few years etc, and I promised myself I would never allow myself to return to that place in life that I require such treatment. Right now I feel like I did before being hospitalized the 2nd time. Ie- not knowing what to do or how to take care of myself, or caring about anything, crying all the time. I am drowning fast and I promised myself I wouldnt return to the world of hospitals etc and I may have to, and I hate myself already for requiring that in the past, it would make me even more of a failure if I have to return. This is so hard to digest.
Mel
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thread:950608
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