Posted by BabyToes on April 21, 2010, at 23:15:05
In reply to Re: Intelligence and bonding in childhood abuse cases, posted by obsidian on April 21, 2010, at 22:59:48
What you described is exactly what I am trying to talk about here. You had escapes (even though I know you couldn't escape it all, you were just a child) but you figured a way to survive through it.
You are trying to heal, you are seeing a T, all of this shows intelligence to me- a wish for things to get better. You are doing what you know you need to heal.
I think we all still will fall down at times, even people who haven't had pasts like us, but knowing how to get up... well that is what makes the difference.
I think it does feel so freaking hard to live life and do therapy at the same time- it does feel like we are stretched like one of those Stretch Armstrongs. (if you are old enough to remember)haha! But even that toy still stayed somewhat disfigured for awhile after it was released. But it bounced back eventually. (usually, unless one was like my brother who just had to know what was inside of it)
My T says that trauma if held in the same part of the brain they believe your creative side is in. After therapy, after I release some of that trauma, I get this creative surge to paint or write. It feels weird and I am just now recognizing that restless feeling as being when I need to create something. What does that feel like to you, when you need to create?