Posted by onceupon on April 18, 2010, at 21:02:29
In reply to Re: wishing, waiting, wanting » onceupon, posted by workinprogress on April 18, 2010, at 19:18:43
Thanks, WIP :)
I wish I could screw up the courage to ask her to meet tomorrow (and I love the way you worded it in your response). Unfortunately, my family's in town now, since I had the not so bright idea to invite them to the defense. Not sure what I was thinking there. I'd imagine she's filled the time by now too, since it was several weeks ago when she took me off her schedule.
"Do you think maybe her not realizing the importance of sharing it with her made you afraid to say it was important?"
I think you're spot on here. I'm often worried that I'm making more of the importance of our relationship than I should. The realization that she didn't see it the same way I did made me feel sad. And it caused me to clam up quickly, since for some strange reason I don't want her to think that I over-value our relationship (not that it's not already obvious). In a lot of ways, it comes back to the ever-present reminder that the therapeutic relationship is unbalanced.
I think I will bring this latter part up with her when we meet the following week. I really like the way you said it.