Posted by TherapyGirl on February 24, 2009, at 20:52:23
In reply to Re: Worse than ever -- UPDATE » TherapyGirl, posted by raisinb on February 24, 2009, at 7:52:19
I'm trying, Raisinb, and I appreciate your support as always.
I've done better overall the last few nights, although I obviously still have my moments. Stayed busier and it's not so hard to manage the horrible hours. Sleeping slightly better, too, which helps for the most part.
It's hard to stay busy enough when I feel so physically horrible on top of everything else. And I'm more often, but not totally, in my usual depression mode now, where I just hide from the world and interact as little as possible. I wouldn't get out of bed if I didn't have to.
I see the gyn. person tomorrow. I'm hoping she'll be some help because thyroid is a hormone. We'll see. At the very least, I hope she'll order the d*mn blood test I need to see what my thyroid is doing now.
I had T tonight and have it again Thurs. night. Tonight I asked her to sit on the couch with me, which she did. She had a lot of reading to do (some of my posts here, some journal entries, letters I've written and my list of symptoms for tomorrow's appt., which she wanted to review). When she read the journal entries, which were written during the worst moments of the past 5 or 6 days, she reached over and took my hand and said, "I'm sorry." She's never done that before.