Posted by Phillipa on February 17, 2009, at 12:52:30
In reply to Re: Transference and Counter-Transference? » Dinah, posted by garnet71 on February 17, 2009, at 11:53:35
I think I'm disclosing too much here but was transference and countertransference the reason I'm with my husband today. Hate to say this he was a patient of mine would not leave me alone always at nursing station interupting me and then when I went home hoped he'd still be there the next day and always checked when got to work. He became my companion getting things from other floors. But this was a chemical dependency unit as he used to drink. But he hugged me at the door before discharge and wanted to see me for a cup of coffee before his trip home to next state. I didn't know as new to chemical dependency that patients and staff were forbidden to see ex patients ever. I broke the rule and ever since the guilt is overwhelming. And to boot he was much younger and don't like younger men like older ones. Each day I wonder if I'm sick as I broke the rules and Nursing was my life. This feeling never leaves me. The guilt so was it transference and countertransference. That hug was like nothing ever experienced. Why did I break the rules? Oh I am probably not ever close as it wasn't a therapist. What was it then? Phillipa blabber mouth please don't show up on goggle.