Posted by Dinah on November 24, 2008, at 8:06:21
In reply to a therapy survey- anything you might want to share, posted by obsidian on November 24, 2008, at 1:42:47
> I do want people to care about me though
I care about you. I think lots of people at Babble do, and I find it hard to believe lots of people not at Babble don't care for you as well.
> so what is the point of therapy?
Well, I rather hate to be so pragmatic, because I know it annoys me when I am, but I guess I see it as to improve our day to day functioning. Whatever other benefits I get are secondary.
> 1) What are you working on in therapy?
When no other crisis takes precedence, my current goal is to develop lovingkindness and generosity of spirit. For purely selfish reasons. (Well not purely, but that's the *therapy* purpose.)
> 2) What led you into therapy?
Panic attacks resulting from OCD fears. They were getting worse since I'd gotten married and become something resembling an adult in the real world.
> 3) What are some of the problems that may be associated with therapy?
Depends on the client and therapist, I'd guess. For me it was becoming attached to someone who was not particularly attached to me. And fighting that out.
> 4) Is there some part of therapy or characteristic of therapy that you find especially helpful?
Fighting to relationship. Discovering my emotional side. Learning CBT skills. I suppose on his part, I found his steady evenkeeled presence the most helpful thing to do all that. That he learned not to push. And that when I push, he generally steps nimbly aside and lets me fall towards growth.
> 4) Do you feel like you have been through different stages in therapy?
Oh yes. Bound to in all this time.
> 5) What's one problem that you can't seem to get rid of or something you have a hard time changing?
Yes. As I've grown older, and perhaps partly because of psych meds or perhaps because of my health, I find it harder and harder to stay motivated, stay awake, etc. I don't think I'm as smart as I used to be, and that makes me feel bad about myself. Oh, and I can't seem to shake my social anxiety.
> 6) What have you gained from therapy?
A lot really. I think mainly a sort of centeredness. Which is relative of course. I'm not a terribly centered person.
> 7) Do you think your therapist cares about you?
In that office, he cares very much. Outside the office, he cares, but I understand the level of his caring.
> 8) Is there anything related to therapy that you wish you had done differently?
What is the old saw? I can't regret anything that happened, because it all brought me to where I am today.
> 9) What part of you do you think is most active and/or present in therapy? is it a particular part of you from the past?
My emotional self. Not from the past, no.
> 10) What is "the question" you might be asking in the therapy process?
Well, the questions I do ask tend to be "Am I a good girl?" "Is everything going to be ok?" "Can I call you if I need to?" "Am I special to you?"
The stuff I should ask is all secondary.