Posted by raisinb on October 20, 2008, at 20:36:54
Sorry for being absent for so long, all. I've been sliding into depression again (my pdoc recommended a med switch, and evidently it was a bad idea. It's so hard to tell what's transition and what's simply not working.) Anyway, in the last week or so, it's gotten really bad.
I had a terrible depression that lasted for months earlier this year. My therapist didn't help. She just sat there and asked the same inane questions (from my perspective).
Today I went in and suddenly felt so depressed I could barely talk. She kept asking me what I felt and I just didn't have the energy to explain and explain how it was, to someone who just wouldn't understand. (I really do think that if you haven't been severely depressed, you just aren't going to get it). So she just sat there in silence for awhile and then asked, "so, do you know how you want to use this time?" Like I'm not working in therapy or something. So I said, "no. See you Thursday." And got up and walked out while she was formulating her reply.
Phew, I'm not feeling well at all. I don't know what they teach them in therapist school, but it certainly seems like I should be able to rely on her expertise for one d**mn day.