Posted by lemonaide on October 15, 2008, at 18:21:24
Today should have been Baby Lia's birthday, I am lighting a candle on her birthday tonight and also today is the Nat'l remembrance for infant and miscarriages day. Gosh it hurts so bad to see and thing about this.
I said goodbye to my old guy T today, it was tearful for both, meaningful, and I will never forget him or what he said to me. And the hug. I am glad I went and did it in person.
Thursday is my 1st anniv. of my brother's death. I am still angry at my mom for killing him. The only way I will ever feel safe, will be when she is dead.
This week is more emotional than I thought it would be, but tears are appropriate for grief, so I am okay.
This will be my last post.
I could mention so many of you that have been a lifesaver for me, who gave me of themselves, you all know who you are. I appreciate knowing all of you and have learned so much.
Right now I am feeling really fragile, I have lost so much, and am feeling so sad today.
But I will be okay, and maybe some day I will come back, but right now I am too scared to read things that hurt me. I am not a bad person.
poster:lemonaide
thread:857626
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