Posted by Angela2 on October 10, 2008, at 18:15:31
Lately things have been going well. I've been getting out more and making a few nice social contacts. I had an interview yesterday, I'm volunteering, and I'm getting ready to enter a craft show. but...
I still can't get myself to go to certain places even though I want to. And this girl who has been my friend for a few years is like...ignoring me. I read her myspace blogs about how "happy" she is with her life right now. Is she avoiding me because she wasn't happy when she was friends with me? What the heck? I don't get it. And it hurts. I emailed her a few weeks ago and told her to stop treating me like crap because like every week she'd ask to do something then something "better" would come up and she'd ditch me. Her response was "sorry" and also..."I guess I just didn't want to spend every weekend with you because I have other friends/things to do." But she was the one contacting me! grr.
I tell myself I should be thankful for what I have. She wasn't even that close a friend. Why do I even focus on it? I am wondering if I am getting paranoid again. Like why can't I just be happy...also,
I keep thinking about my facebook account and how maybe some people don't like me. I don't know why I'm thinking this except that I have a bunch of facebook friends from high school and none of them talk to me. Bleh.
I think my unhappiness might ave something to do with the fact that I really wanted to do something today (not with this "friend" I told you about), and was too nervous to do it, so my day was kinda bla.Any responses or insights would be appreciated!
Angela2
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