Posted by FindingMyDesire on October 4, 2008, at 17:12:33
In reply to Re: Your Everything? » no_rose_garden, posted by JayMac on October 4, 2008, at 12:07:34
Dear JayMac,
I totally get you on this one! I feel like my T is everything to me. Then I have to leave the room at the end of those 50 incredible minutes...I often feel "little" in therapy. Sometimes it feels childlike and other times I'm saying in my head that I am acting "pathetic". Of course that's some internalized judgment I have about feeling need, want, desire, vulnerability, etc. Nothing bad ever happens to me for feelings these things in there - she is always consistent, caring and sees me. So, I leave more capable of dealing with my real two-sided relationships.
But, it's hard for me right now just how much I feel for her. And how much I want from her. And how much I want to give to her. I like to be a "good" client too... she knows that and is always on the lookout for my trying to be a certain way for her instead of exposing my truth... she usually catches me too which now that I think about it really helps me trust her ability.
I do think it's great when one can share whatever kind of "fantasies" one has about their T. I know from experience it has always been useful. However, it's so much easier for me to imagine than do. Even though it's always useful, the thought of speaking the words is terrifying.
I hope that if it feels right you will share that one about feeling three. It's very vivid. Probably full of some good stuff.
:-)
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