Posted by lemonaide on September 22, 2008, at 22:32:42
In reply to Re: Everyone, posted by muffled on September 22, 2008, at 20:40:33
I really don't know what to think. He told me it was a group of T's, I don't know what kind of group or even if there is any confidentiality there within the group. I don't know how that works exactly, it might have even been a social thing too, I don't know. My T is one of the oldest most experienced in the city, so I am sure things do get around because he is such an icon of a good therapist. But knowing I am not crazy for noticing a chance in him makes me feel a little relieved. My T told me that I would notice something like this because of my past, I am inclined to notice even little changes in people, which he told me would be helpful in being a T.
I really don't think I am making a rash decision here, it is something I have been dealing with for a while now. I haven't even made a decision yet. I don't believe I am running away from anything. It is hard for someone to help you when they can't remember much of the year before in sessions. I am trying to help myself here by doing the right thing whatever that is. Therapy is expensive and if things are not going right, not from anyone's fault, but because of physical reasons of the T, someone has to look out for me, and that has always been me.This is really tearing me up, I don't want to terminate with him. If it was up to me, this wouldn't have happened, and I would be with him at least another year and terminate properly. He was even going to be my T mentor, but he has forgotten that too. He has even forgotten I am a psych student. But how long do I wait for him to become him again? Will he ever be him again?
Guillain-Barre syndrome is what he had after a severe bout of stomach flu which is why he had to go to the hospital in the first place. They thought he was having a heart attack, and after testing, they notice a artery was blocked, so they put a stent in. Then 2 weeks after that he came down with the syndrome and was in the hospital for a week again. I know it threw him mentally for a loop, and maybe it is the anxiety of this is what caused the changes in memory.
I just don't know what to do, that is why I posted. I don't want to leave him, but when do you draw the line for staying in therapy because I don't want to hurt his feelings. I do have an appointment with him tomorrow and it scares me. I don't know what to do.
poster:lemonaide
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