Posted by antigua3 on September 18, 2008, at 14:48:13
In reply to Re: Lost my dream job, posted by Nadezda on September 18, 2008, at 13:41:49
I hadn't taken into consideration that I really may need some time to accept what happened. Jumping forward does keep me busy, but obviously with the underlying longing feelings I'm having for my pdoc, something is not quite right.
This also brings up a very difficult situation with my husband--I won't be making money for a while and in the past, especially when I've been focused on my therapy and couldn't really work, he has been very angry and it has been ugly, especialy about him thinking I shouldn't be paying for therapy when I wasn't bringing in enough.
I really don't want to go back to that place with him (I was drawing a salary w/my partner--not tops, but enough to help us get by), and we've already discussed it once. But I don't trust that he won't revert to form, or to the actualities of our life, like we need money to live, our oldest is in college, our second one will be in a few years, etc.
It's sad and it's just triggering me in ways that I don't understand. Like longing for my pdoc, although he can't/won't help with this. My T is there, but I don't want her.
Thanks for listening,
antigua
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