Posted by Daisym on May 30, 2008, at 22:32:11
In reply to Re: And now, something new afterall - trigger » DAisym, posted by Lucie Lu on May 29, 2008, at 23:39:00
Thank you all for sharing your own experiences. I'm not sure I could ever talk about this if I thought my arousal was due to being attracted to my therapist. I have feelings for him and sex is mixed up in them, but I've never had this kind of body response when thinking about those feelings.
I've been reading about body-flashbacks and I'm pretty sure this is at least part of what is happening. It seems like it will take a lot of work to uncouple sex and fear. I feel broken and I just want to be normal.
I'm sure it doesn't matter which words I chose to use, my therapist is OK with it. We've worked together long enough now that lots of sentences go unfinished - and obviously he is getting better at reading my body language. But from what he says and what I've read, trying to make sense of these feelings and their origins is important to healing. So I'm trying.
I think when I'm done journaling this, I should just try my hand at writing a steamy novel. Seems to me that the body sensations are all written out and written well in those kinds of books.
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