Posted by rskontos on May 12, 2008, at 12:30:28
In reply to Re: A New Understanding (long) » rskontos, posted by B2chica on May 12, 2008, at 12:12:11
Sigh, you are right B2c but geeze it is hard not to be sometimes you know. It is so much easier to stay numb than to fight to feel, at least for me right now. I am in a very strange state. I could easily fall apart if I let myself so numb is good I think. I just know know WTF to do. I cancelled my t for today and he called to reschedule. I may cancel that one too closer to Wednesday and write him a long email about how i really feel as it is easier for me to get those feelings out as my email conversations go better and those in my head with him than those in real life. I am tempted to just not to go back but that is what I always do so that is probably the wrong thing too. Sometimes I feel so f*ck*d up. you know what i mean.
rsk
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