Posted by DAisym on April 1, 2008, at 19:37:13
I just found out my therapist has a web site - it is new and he did it jointly with his spouse, who is also a therapist. It has pictures and lots of nice verbiage about therapy and how it can help. It is directed primarily at couples. A friend who was looking for a new marriage counselor told me about it - she said she really liked it. Curiosity, as they say, killed the cat.
I found that it really rattled me to see it. There were lots of conflicting emotions and I pretty much hate how I feel - a mixture of jealousy and fear and lots and lots of sadness. I did talk with him about it this morning. My impulse was to run away, not show up for my session. I was embarrassed about having such a strong reaction. But I decided I'd grown enough in therapy to go and be honest about my reaction, no matter how stupid I felt.
He was open to discussing it as always. And he had lots of ideas about why it would be painful to see it. He was fine with all my strong feelings and said he didn't think I was out of line or that I was carrying some wild fantasy of us riding off into the sunset. And he said he doesn't just want to work with couples, that he thinks the work we are doing together is really important. It was hard to talk about all of this - embarrassing and painful and scary questions kept coming up.
As much as I love the net, I think it might have been easier to be a therapy client before this. Has anyone else seen their therapist's web site and if so, did it bother you?