Posted by crushedout on March 15, 2008, at 14:48:44
I emailed my T yesterday to say I wanted to take her up on her offer to continue for *at least* one more session. She didn't write me back, which is not usual. She doesn't usually write me back if I'm just expressing feelings in emails, but she does if it's appointment-related.So I didn't overreact--I assumed she either hadn't received my email or that she hadn't yet had time to respond, most likely the first one. So I called her on her cell today and explained that. Now she hasn't gotten back to me and I'm trying not to panic that she has decided to dump me. :(
I was totally calm about this two hours ago. Actually felt ok with whatever happens--if she wanted to end it, it wouldn't really be the end of the world. I feel ok without her, which has been very reassuring in a way. It's been a reassuring experience to allow myself to see that I really *could* leave her, that I really *would* be fine without her, even if staying is the better option for now.
So, basically, I'm doing ok, but right now I'm feeling a little panicky about the possibility of getting rejected, and this surprises me.
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