Psycho-Babble Psychology | about psychological treatments | Framed
This thread | Show all | Post follow-up | Start new thread | List of forums | Search | FAQ

I'm hurting so much right now

Posted by Racer on March 3, 2008, at 18:26:09

In reply to The reality......, posted by twinleaf on March 2, 2008, at 19:47:57

Thank you to all who have responded. I'm sorry I haven't had it in me to respond individually, but I haven't -- so, a group thank you.

I spent most of the weekend crying, and had to leave class today because I just couldn't be there. And I have a special board meeting tonight that I cannot not attend, which feels like a sword hanging over my neck.

The thing is, no matter what I know in my head, my body knows something, too. My body knows that it's not being touched, that it's not being held, that its needs are not being met. Yes, I can take care of some of it, but lately that's left me feeling even worse.

I called my therapist, who'll come in on her day off to see me, so at least I can talk about this a little. I can tell her what a can of worms this opened up for me. I can ask her if she meant it as a Modest Proposal, to get the discussion going again, or if she just meant I should look for someone to meet these needs.

I'm so afraid that no one will ever touch me again! I am so very frightened that I will never be held again. I have so little in my life right now, and desperately need *something* to help fill the voids -- and aside from all the voids that I have to fill myself, there are one or two that require the involvement of a second body.

Damn. I hate this. I cannot manage to deal with this pain, it's just too much for me.




Post a new follow-up

Your message only Include above post

Notify the administrators

They will then review this post with the posting guidelines in mind.

To contact them about something other than this post, please use this form instead.


Start a new thread

Google www
Search options and examples
[amazon] for

This thread | Show all | Post follow-up | Start new thread | FAQ
Psycho-Babble Psychology | Framed

poster:Racer thread:815743