Posted by LadyBug on February 13, 2008, at 17:36:03
In reply to Ladybug, posted by Dinah on February 12, 2008, at 16:58:59
I've never had a post directed to me lately but hey, there's always a first.
I went to therapy last night and just cried the whole hour. I even left her a voice mail last night still crying. By then I took a half of a sleeping pill and went to bed.
I've been going through the time of my life. I left my marriage of 23 years. Right when I'm in the process of moving I find out my 16 year old is pregnant. These challenges have tried me to the max!!!
Well, my daughter decided after months of trying to decide to place her baby for adoption. She picked the couple, we went to their home and told them of her decision. We had met them earlier etc. so they knew she was making a decision. We told them on a Thurs. well, the following Sunday, they found out they are pregnant. We found out this past Monday night that she is pregnant. We were ok with it for a little while and then we went into shock over it. Two days later and we met with my daughters adoption case worker to discuss what she wants to do now. I won't go into all the details of what we talked about but she is now deciding if she wants to keep him? Oh man my world was shoved into reverse going down the road at 100 MPH!
Then on Sunday night I got a call from my step son who is now a Dr. in DC and doing his residency. He asked me a few questions about his dad, my soon to be X spouse. It sounds as if his dad has committed some major fraud in his own sons name!!!!!!!!!!! He is likely going to land in prison this time as it's not the first time this has happened. So now I have to try to process this, my kids dad in prison? My daughter is due to have her baby in 6 weeks and I don't know what the heck she's doing now? I've been sick with a nasty sinus infection. My mom needs to be put in nursing home and I can't even be there to help her. She is dying and I don't even have enough left over to go be there for her. While at my Dr. last week he heard a heart murmur, so I'm going to have that checked out this Friday.
I'm ready to lose it!
My T has been so supportive. In the process of all this though I find out she is going to be out of the country for 3 weeks, most likely when the baby is born and placed for adoption. This will perhaps be the hardest thing I'll go through in my life and she won't even be here to help me through it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok, does that give you any clue as to how stressful my life is????????????
I've over the top and I can't take anymore! But guess what, I don't have a choice, I have to go through it even though it's hard and I hate every min. of it.
I can leave daily or more often voice mails to my T and she knows she needs to check them often and respond. I hate my life and everything about it!!! But hey, it will be ok
PS I hope the heck you guys were referring to me in the title of the post and not the ladybugsmom person I've seen.