Posted by lovelorn on December 20, 2007, at 17:53:06
In reply to Re: Therapy Hangover, posted by rskontos on December 20, 2007, at 14:16:25
>so my therapy sessions are hard and getting harder.
Yes, I can imagine. It is hard enough when you don't dissociate dealing with your issues and I imagine it is doubly so when you do dissociate or split. I hope they get easier as your mind and different parts adjust to interacting with the T, and with learning to control your parts better.
> i am sorry for you though that you are so good and then after therapy you all mixed up. But i do think it must mean you are not quite there yet.
Yes. It's not a good feeling to be confused so soon after thinking I am doing better.
A few hours on from my post and I have to agree with you. I am not quite there yet. Actually, after writing all that I did, I am feeling kind of triggery. I sense or feel that I will be going to that 'young' place again and facing some more stuff to work out. I will be more careful in future to not post so soon after sessions, when I am feeling vulnerable in mind.
I think I overestimated the positivity - after feeling like crappola for two years, I read more into it than I should have. In my Healing and Cure post, I said that I have a ways to go. I guess I wanted to feel as if I've gone further than I have. Dope. I should know better by now that this is a looong process. I have to see myself as 'getting' better and not necessary 'all' better. The downs just mean some more stuff to process. I do rebound much better now and am getting stronger but nowhere near done. I will have a clearer perspective in a few days time.
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