Posted by llurpsienoodle on December 13, 2007, at 18:52:24
To tell you the truth, I am not looking forward to my upcoming vacation. I don't want to think about it. I don't want to put in any effort. The last few times I flew I had panic attacks/dissociation at the airport.
I am lucky. h will be there to help me negotiate things like getting to the airport and his sister has told us how to get through the customs. I'm going to 4 different places in Asia.
This is the 5th time I've been to Asia, so there will be some stuff I'm expecting and other things that will be a complete surprise. I was hoping that talking about my fears with T would help. Until I realized that I didn't have any specific fears, just this general sense of grave unease. T said that it was natural, that I'm going to a strange culture and that I will only understand bits and pieces of the language being spoken around me. The whole thing is so surreal, I'm worried about dissociating my way through the vacation and being victimized.
I'm rambling. I just don't know where to start with these feelings. sorry
and there is a winter storm tonight in the northeast. what a mess! even the cat doesn't wanna go outside.
-Ll
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thread:800636
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