Posted by star008 on December 11, 2007, at 2:04:04
Why,, i hate it. I hate going..Even when itis not busy I hate it.. See Ihave this body image thing and I thnk I am ugly and way bigger than I really am.. I buy most of my clothes too big.
This sound insane but if I go to the mall and see a mirror I realize how ugly I am and I get bummed out and I want to go home. to me I look fat, trashy, haggard,... ohhhh wahtever else ou can think of.. I have a mirror thing.. I rarely get my hair cut cuz it mean I will have to sit there in front of the mirro and look at myself. I fix my hair and makeup at home and never look in a mirror at work cuz then I will see how ugly I am and will feel bad.. I move off to the side when I wash my hands or keep my head down so I don't have to see myself.. Really...I brush my hair at work and sometimes brush my teeth there too but never , ever look in the mirror... yeah, I am screwed..lol.. It is true.. i never told anyone but it is alot easier here, I know you will believe me and even if you don't understand you will try to..i guess i am having a bad night.. i htought i should talk to my T about thisone.. He has no idea.. I just told him I hate the mall and hate shopping and hate getting my hair cut.. he has no idea what the real reason is. thanks for listning to me rant and rave tonite.. 300 and still up..
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