Posted by muffled on December 6, 2007, at 23:24:45
I scared cuz my T is too nice.
I wanto push her away.
Nice is freakin me out.I think those emots are comming back.
Bubbling up.
I am trying to stop them.
But they bubbling and bubbling.
WHY DON"T THEY JUST GO AWAY???????
Its scarin me too.I think I screwing up.
But I HAVE to.
I don't but I DO. Have to, I mean.
I have CHOICE.
But I pick bad choice.
Cuz I scared cuz I don't want it to come back. Last time was bad I think, I don't remember too much but I remember kinda freaking out some.
Scared , scared , scared.
My gut hurts and I scared.
I DON"T WANTO KNOW. I DON"T.I want to phone T.
But I don't wanto dissapoint her.
And WHAT can she do?
I should take care myownself like I ALWAYS have.
She taught me LOTS. I should be able to do better.
F*ck*ng loser am I.I won't let noone near.
Cuz, cuz, well I don't know, but I won't, I can't.
And I alone with the secret badness.
And I get mad, and scared too.
My head get mixed up.
People all over.Kid wants T.
Somebody else tellin her to shut the f*ck up.
Somebody just screams alot.
Nasty just say HEY PARTAY!!!!I am alone, surrounded by those who mysteriously care for me.
I just want it to stop is all.
Why do I got to be this way?
Could be worse.
Ever so much worse.
But it sucks nonetheless.
I whiney little sh*t ain't I?I be fine.
Always am.
Its what I DO.
I be fine.
Survived this long, reckon I'll make it a little longer.
Just sucks like sh*t when we get all scared is all.
Bubbling, bubbling
:-(
poster:muffled
thread:799253
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20071204/msgs/799253.html