Posted by TherapyGirl on October 19, 2007, at 14:31:09
Sorry I've been so out of things on the board lately. I finally had to admit to myself this week that I'm in the black hole, yet again.
Yesterday's session was difficult. It's hard to express my frustration with my life and hear what sounds like platitudes coming from T. If I just change a few more things, if I just stopped doing... It just wasn't what I needed to hear. It's not that I don't think she has a point, it's the timing. I'm already beating myself up enough -- I don't need her help. I finally told her I didn't want to talk about it anymore because I was just going to end up pissed off at her. She then changed tack a little bit. But it was too little too late.
This is the basic disagreement that we always have when I'm depressed -- she thinks I just need to keep going, trusting that my life is going to be better one day. I think why the h*ll would I do that? I have pretty much changed every single thing about my life in the last 2 years and here I am back in this same place again. I just can't take it -- and certainly not for 30 more years of this bs.
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