Posted by RealMe on October 6, 2007, at 10:56:49
In reply to Re: Therapy good - OMG, said things **trigger*, posted by RealMe on October 5, 2007, at 19:41:45
Thanks Joni and Lurpsie; I am trying; I don't want to be in therapy again for years, and so I sometimes push myself too hard. T agrees. He wants me to think about what works for me when I start to get overwhelmed. I need to do what I used to be able to do and that is to set things aside until the next session. This means, I guess, I better journal about the session right away as otherwise it will be gone within days; thanks ECT.
T thought it might be more depression than ECT, but I said I recall going to court to testify in a case and was on the stand for three half-days and was able to handle it fine even though it was one week before I did ECT. I was profoundly depressed and yet it was not like my working memory was messed up like it is now. I do a lot to compensate. As the ECT doc said, smarter people have cognitive reserve and though I have probably lost IQ points, I am still smarter than most people. GEE what comfort. I don't think so.
So, if I read a new book, I don't remember what I read from chapter to chapter. One book I am reading is a Garrison Keillor book; very funny and all, but I read a chapter a night, and by the next night I don't remember what I read. It's okay with this book as I don't have to remember chapter to chapter to be able to enjoy the book.
Thank God I am done with all my schooling. Now it's just a matter of "compensating." This leaves me very depressed, however, as I thought it was getting better, but it isn't really.
RealMe
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