Posted by honore on August 28, 2007, at 13:19:02
In reply to does therapy make you anxious?, posted by obsidian on August 28, 2007, at 10:24:10
I've been writing a selfportrait, and realizing that it's almost impossible for me to write about myself. I'm so shocked by this-- but I really can't think of anything to say. I feel like a cipher-- kind of like if someone else says something, I can talk about that-- but I'm just empty-- without any qualities, or desires, or character-- other than bad things. I can say those-- I'm afraid of x, or unable to do y, or a failure at z. That comes to mind easily. But nothing positive-- nothing that would make anyone want to know someone, or would make me feel that I might be worthwhile-- other than that I'm trying-- even if I'm not succeeding or even if I'm a failure.
But that isn't much-- so I guess maybe in therapy, I always talk about what's wrong with me-- and it's an endless topic-- but if I didn't have that, I'd be struck dumb.
Honore
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